I don't like to look at "it" as a problem. But it is. As much as I know deep down....its not supposed to be.
It's not supposed to be like this.
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I worked tonight (a double actually). But my day was horrible. I didn't even wear make up to work which is a huge indicator right there that im upset. I cried basically all day.
Then Jerr and Kendra came over tonight for a couple hours to keep me company. Oh ya, and Elena too :) Thank god....because I seriouslly think I woulda gone nuts.
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I've given in. These feelings are never going away.
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I (somewhat) decorated my apartment tonight for Halloween. Yay. Thats about the only thing I can smile about right now.
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Ok. Time for bed. Baby Shower in the morning.